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My Mistakes by Carol Berubee http://www.tonyabetz.org/MSM/Product/mistakes.htm
Page 1 of 1 What is a teacher to do if he finds himself doubting what he used to
believe? What is expected of a teacher who comes to understand that what she has been teaching has
been wrong?
I want to publicly declare that some things I have taught in the past are wrong. Some of these
mistakes may have led people to make wrong decisions. I want to go on record with an apology and
an explanation of these teachings. When I was saved by the Lord back in 1997, I had attended church only once in my life. No
one in my family was saved and we never went to church. When I was about 11, my mother decided we
should all go to church. My brothers and I had to "try it," and if we didn't like it, we didn't have
to go again. Needless to say, my parents went to church by themselves after that! They attended for
another year or so
and that was the end of that. When I was saved at age 31, I had spent my adult life Godless and
churchless. I really didn't know what to do because I knew that my one Sunday in church was
horrendous. I couldn't stomach the thought of going to church again. Yet, I was drawn to learning
more about my Savior. So, I found myself listening to TBN on the television. I had no prior knowledge,
so what they said seemed to make sense. I began to buy into the idea that God saved us to have
wonderful, abundant (Read: financially blessed) lives. I began sending checks to various
ministries and when there was no more money in the bank to cover the checks, I began donating with
my credit card. The TV people were explaining how God would especially bless those who gave what they
DIDN'T have. That was me. And I was faithfully waiting for my blessing. Two years later, I finally
took the plunge and started attending a church. I was still waiting for my financial blessings.
But now, though -- through the teachings of Joyce Meyer and T.D. Jakes -- I was convinced
that I just had to step out there and see what happened. I had just earned a Master's degree in
Applied (Research) Psychology the year before, and I had been told by some folks at my new church
that God would not have allowed me to earn that degree if He didn't want me to use it for Him. I felt
uneasy about that and tried to explain that I had made the decision to enter the Ph.D. program but
quit after earning the Master's because I felt that the Lord wanted me to get out. But these people at
church, coupled with the teachings from TBN, convinced me that I had to take a leap of faith.
I quit my job (a job the Lord had given me just six months earlier) and started my own business that
would glorify God. It was an utter failure. I spent the next nine months living off my credit
cards, going $10,000 in debt, and continuing to send donations to TBN people. I was convinced that
my ship had to come in soon. Finally, after nearly nine months of utter terror, I gave the Lord
an ultimatum: Either He brought some money my way by October 5, 1999, or I would quit this business
and beg for my old job back. Nothing happened. There was no money. God was silent.
In November 1999, I began working back at my old job
for less pay
than what I was making when I had left. But it was money that I desperately needed. I was more than
humbled. I was utterly humiliated. During the first two years of my Christian walk, I was soaking
in all that these "prosperity teachers" had to say. During those nine months of trying to "work for
God," I had been teaching people, via my website, that God operates through the law of sowing and
reaping. I was recommending books that would help people to accumulate wealth based on God's laws of
prosperity. Today, I deeply regret having been a part of such a monstrous lie, not because I was
duped but because I had tried to convince others that they should go into debt, if necessary, for
the Kingdom of God. Today, I understand that God does want us to be "cheerful givers," but He
does not demand that we give more than He has given us. I also learned a lot more about the Word of
Faith teachings, only part of which is the "prosperity gospel." Through my experience, I came to have
a deep hunger for the Word. I wanted to know what is true and what is false. I wanted to know more
about these teachers on TV and how it was that they were twisting the Scriptures. I learned that
the Word of Faith teachers are extremely dangerous, not only because of the "prosperity gospel," but
because of their views on the nature of Christ and the nature of man. If you want to know more about
the Word of Faith teachings, I highly recommend Tricia Tillin's old site,
Cross+Word, now being
administered by Into Truth. One
word of caution: I have not read everything on that site and cannot speak toward the many other
subjects Tillin has researched. I read everything about the Word of Faith movement and found it very
useful. Despite my disastrous experience with the "prosperity gospel," I still believed that God honored
our tithes and offerings by multiplying them. It's just that now I was a little more careful about
how much I gave and to whom I gave. I no longer gave to TBN or TBN people. I was tithing at church and
fully expected to be financially blessed by that. In 2002, I was asked by the pastor to speak to the
congregation on tithing because he knew that I was passionate about it. I stood before hundreds of
people and gave a brilliant teaching from Exodus and Joshua that had people excited. Too bad I was
wrong. Tithing is an Old Testament "law" or "principle" that we do not see in the New Testament
Church. We see "offerings" in the New Testament epistles, but not tithing. Please read a very brief
explanation of the Old Testament tithe
here.
I would only add that in the
New Testament, we see that Yeshua was the firstfruits (tithe) to the Father. His sacrifice satisfied
the requirement. The offerings are different.
Throughout the Church epistles, we see that we are to give of our time and energy and money, but only
as the Lord leads and only as the Lord provides. Let me put it this way: If
you are in debt, why would God want you to tithe instead of pay your debt? In Romans 13:7-8, Paul
says that
God desires we "owe no one anything." We have a responsibility to pay our debts. We need to pay them
as soon as possible. Once we have paid what we owe, we are free to give as God desires. I am
convinced that if we really gave as much as the Lord wants us to give, it would be more
than the ten percent tithe. But again, we have to be careful that we give where God wants us to give,
when He wants us to give. It is not a formula.
When The Passion of the Christ came out in February 2004, I was opposed to it because it is
Catholic. I still am opposed to it for the same reasons. You can read my review of the movie
here. The problem is
that I had said something on an audio recording that I made concerning the movie. On that recording, I
had said that Jesus suffered
spiritually far more than He suffered physically because sin separated Him from Father.
I don't think that I was saying that "Jesus died spiritually." At the time, if you had asked me if I
thought Jesus died spiritually, I probably would have said, "no." However, that answer would have been
out of ignorance. What I mean is that saying Jesus died spiritually did not ring true to me, but
a couple of years ago, I did buy into the idea of "spiritual separation." I realize that this may
sound like mere semantics, but I believe that the doctrine is wrong, no matter what you call it.
I realize that many "Bible scholars," from Augustine to Luther to Calvin to Chuck Smith, have all
taught that Yeshua was separated from the Father on the cross as part of His payment for our sin. It
doesn't really matter to me who teaches this doctrine. I don't believe it and I think it has led to
some horrendous theological blunders, not the least of which is the Word of Faith teaching that Jesus
was the first born again man. This is not to say that everyone who believes that Jesus died spiritually
also believes that He was born again in Hell. If you were to ask the Jesus died spiritually (JDS) people
if they also believe that Jesus was born again in Hell, most would say, "no," not because they have
studied it and don't believe it, but because they haven't thought through their belief that Jesus died
spiritually. JDS people are everywhere and the teaching is perpetuated because it makes sense to
our logical minds. I have completed a teaching on this subject and it is posted
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